Periphery
Skinner found the notion of seducing Mulder right
there and then, in a darkened room still littered with
crime scene photos, was not something he had a
great deal of trouble with. No more than in his usual
fantasies, anyway. Which didn’t include the photos.
He looked at Mulder standing there half in and half
out of his shirt, pale faced and tight lipped,
and resisted the urge to sigh. The trouble with
reality was that it came with consequences.
"What are you sorry about?" he asked simply, after
they observed a careful minute of silence.
And watched, fascinated, as answers surfaced and
swam across Mulder’s face like stigmata and
disappeared just as quickly, rejected out of hand.
In the end Mulder said wryly, "More things than in
heaven and earth, Walter." He wore the same flat,
disconnected expression he
had shown Skinner just before he had thrown up in
his office.
Skinner controlled his irritation with an effort.
Ask a straightforward question, get a quotation.
Welcome to Mulder's world. He didn't feel adequately
equipped for a crusade and what else was Mulder, if
not that? Yet being gifted this sort of opportunity only
served to highlight the circularity of such thoughts.
He wanted what he wanted. On something short of
impulse, he moved his right hand, which was still pressed
against Mulder’s chest, downwards until he found
his nipple again. The cause of it all or maybe just a
catalyst; he didn’t know. He rubbed the soft pad of
his thumb against it and Mulder shivered lightly under
his touch. He wasn't sure he cared.
A part of him was shocked but mostly he felt
relieved the way people do when they switch off the
leaf-blower or their percolator or whatever was
making that useful but annoying noise. All of the
buzzing that went on inside him, unabated, as
insurance against doing this very thing, simply cut
out. He let his fingertips brush over Mulder's nipple again,
feeling it harden, feeling his own cock firm up in mindless
greed. Mulder moved restlessly, pushing up into Skinner's
fingertips even as his eyes fixed themselves on a point
beyond his shoulders.
Skinner managed to resist waving a hand in front of
Mulder’s eyes. Surely if he worked at it, he could
find this about-face in speech pattern
endearing? He skimmed his fingers the rest of the way down
Mulder’s chest and then forgoing pretence, pushed the shirt off
his shoulders and let it pool around his waist. It was
still buttoned on at the wrists and effectively acted as
a mild form of restraint. Looking down at Mulder’s
hands, elegant fingers curled in on themselves, he decided
he didn’t care too much for that idea. Carefully he undid the buttons at
each wrist, feeling Mulder’s pulse go up a notch. I can hear you, he thought, a little smugly, before sliding the shirt off.
And then there they were, Mulder, Skinner and Mulder’s
shirt. Absurdly, Skinner, still in shirt, tie and pants,
was left feeling defensive. The unnatural
novelty of moving Mulder into this crossing of lines
sat uncomfortably with him even as he glanced at
the other man in suspicion. Was this just Plan B on Mulder's Ways
to Get Things list? He wondered if he really did need to explain
himself. Surely not. Mulder might look comatose but--
He ran his hand carefully up his abdomen and found a sore
muscle. Saw a shadow change the moorings of Mulder’s face for
that moment and then it was gone. He waited out any imminent
protest and when none seemed forthcoming,
carefully put his palm flush against Mulder’s skin and
massaged that muscle until it uncoiled itself a little. Comatose.
Yeah right. It would take a blow to the head to shut Mulder's
thoughts down.
He bent his head and bit lightly at a
nipple, urging it to the same state of thoughtlessness
he was in thrall to. Mulder made a low, nothing sound at the back
of his throat, neither here nor there.
"In English, Mulder," he said, letting his other hand
rest at Mulder’s throat, finger and thumb stroking
softly. What one hand took, the other was happy to
give back.
Glancing up at Mulder’s face, he saw nothing but the
ordinary shadows of stubble and cheekbone. Still he felt
compelled to press. "I won't ask twice."
The shock he suffered when Mulder's hand came around
to press his head back to Mulder's chest, was suitably puritanical
in its force. A different, more rancid part of him sneered at himself.
Did he think you were the milk monitor, about to give him a fucking
demerit, Walter? He fucks like people talk.
A part of Skinner took a moment to think about that. He had
all too clear a picture of it. There had been many tapes and many photos and though he didn't see over a third of those - whatever he might have said to Mulder in badly judged sympathy - he remembered all of it.
The rest of him took a majority vote and decided to
give superior air-time to the fact that Mulder was here and not unwilling.
His hands went to Mulder's waist and he felt
Mulder’s hands upon his, helping him to undo his
pants, with an almost palpable relief. Necrophilia wasn't his thing,
even with the lights off. Whatever the reason, Mulder was
now present and accounted for. His eyes came back
from their endless horizon and met Skinner’s gaze.
"I want you," Mulder said, lifting his hips so Skinner
could ease his pants off him.
I want you. His hands stayed immobile against
Mulder’s zip, the metal cool against his fingertips as images
of Mulder assailed him. He saw himself gripping
Mulder’s hips tight enough to bruise, urging
him on, fingers pushed into his ass. He saw a smiling,
inviting Mulder on display for him, his hands sliding
up and down his own cock, slick with Skinner’s saliva.
He saw Mulder, naked and needy, allowing Skinner’s
cock into his mouth, taking him deeper with every stroke.
Murkier fantasies flowed thickly, bleeding into each other.
Fantasies of sleeping a night to its end with Mulder
beside him, one leg hooked over Skinner’s hip.
Fantasies of Mulder, unguarded and at rest.
Mulder’s hands pressed down on his own,
bringing him back to what they were doing. Streetlights
had been switched on outside, giving some relief to
the dim, nearly dark room. Mulder was a study in
monochrome. Planes of silver. Curves of shadow.
Beautiful - a word that
had insidiously crept into Skinner’s mental lexicon,
as Mulder himself had, ensuring he could never again
use it to describe anything else in quite the same way. Though it was doubtful, in any case, that he might ever have wanted to. As it was, he felt fanciful and embarrassed at the way his mind was wandering. Flights of metaphor didn't sit well with men of his age and he had seen such men, steeped in mid-life crises, go beyond thinking such things and all the way into saying them aloud. He felt himself every inch of that kind of fool now as his fingers pressed into Mulder's zipper, cleaving to it. But no other word seemed appropriate or ready to hand. Mulder was beautiful. Light played off his eyes, letting Skinner see the way they were focussed on him, smoking the skin off him wherever they rested. He was here. And he wanted Skinner.
Small words, their implications beyond his immediate
understanding. Yet they were working on him at a
terrifying speed, laying waste to any part of him that wanted
to stop and consider the risks of this. He let Mulder guide
his hands over his hips and up to the waistband of his
pants. Then he found himself at eye-level with Mulder’s boxers as he bent to guide the man's feet out of his pant legs. Glow in the dark mushrooms. Well he wasn’t all that surprised, after all. What did surprise him was how little he really cared. All the cracks
that cried out to be made; the fevered speculation that ran rife in
the Bureau; all of it faded into static, muted by the
reality of seeing Mulder like this.
Eyes straining through the faint light, Skinner stared.
As voyeurism went, he had got a fair look at
Mulder’s body, bruises and all. But everything
seemed different again, in the wake of Mulder’s
words. I want you. None of his briskly pornographic
fantasies had imagined the loose, almost casual intensity
with which the other man was standing there, waiting for him.
Stronger men than Skinner would have folded at the sight.
He moved forward and fitted his body into Mulder’s.
Wrapping one arm around his back, he used his own
weight to pin Mulder there and ran the other hand down
his side to settle on his hip.
Feeling himself get harder, he asked, "This what
you want?"
"Yeah, like that," Mulder sighed against
his neck, his breath swirling along the edge of
Skinner’s ear.
It was enough. He slid his free hand into Mulder’s
hair and kissed him deeply. Hard. And refused to come
up for air. For the second time in his life, Skinner was
inside Mulder's mouth; and it was better than breathing.
Much better.
Finally when his lungs were screaming for release,
he lifted his mouth a little of the way off Mulder’s,
and said tersely, "Breathe, Mulder."
Mulder flashed him a
grin and took a long, teasing breath of air, his eyes mocking
Skinner. Skinner heard himself make an impatient sound
before he fell upon him again, giving orders against
his open mouth, hearing Mulder’s soft laughter,
demanding Mulder kiss him back, as much for the pleasure
of making him laugh as for his need of it. Mulder sighed
softly, maddeningly slow in his compliance, waiting
for Skinner to give way to threats before opening his
mouth against him. His tongue
flickered into Skinner’s mouth, swiping over it in a
delicate, wet caress that had Skinner talking again,
pushing up against Mulder in helpless thrusts.
Mulder made a happy sound in the back of his throat
and Skinner was left wanting to step into his skin, to
soak into his bones.
He pulled back for a quick moment, studying
Mulder’s eyes, dark with desire. Smiling at him, he
muttered, "You’re beautiful."
"You don't get out enough," Mulder said,
an answering smile curving his mouth.
Skinner shook his head at the madness of it all and
moved around at Mulder’s urging until he was the
one braced against the desk. He ran his thumb
along Mulder's jaw, still bemused that he was being allowed
these pleasures. Mulder looked up at him with questioning eyes
and he nodded. And then Mulder was unzipping him and pushing
down his pants. Skinner looked down and saw his cock straining
blindly through his briefs and Mulder skimming his palms lightly
down the length of it.
"Ah, Christ," he said, and closed his eyes against
such a crazy sight.
Not that it did much good. Visions of sliding home into Mulder's
mouth arose unbidden, sweating a slick map over his skin. He
opened his eyes again and was unable to stop his fingers from
biting into Mulder’s arms as he shucked off both Skinner’s
pants and briefs. The air was warm, he noted, trying not to flinch as
Mulder ran his eyes over his cock.
"Holy shit, Walter." Mulder said gleefully, sliding
back up Skinner’s body, not stopping his deliberately
wanton journey until he was flush against him. "You
carry a licence for that thing?"
He was unable to stop an explosive snort of
laughter, even as he tried for disgust.
"Jesus, Mulder, that’s so fucking corny. Where do
you come up with that shit?"
Mulder gave him a crooked, tender smile. "I don’t
buy Honcho for the pictures, Walter."
Then he was undoing Skinner’s tie, unbuttoning his
shirt and taking off his glasses and Skinner was
letting him do it.
Mulder folded the glasses carefully inwards and in
a typically incompatible move, let them fall to the floor,
toeing them out of the way. Watching him make
himself at home had Skinner wanting the taste
of him all over again. He reached out and, grabbing him
by the nape of his neck, pulled him into a tight embrace.
One hand splaying out against Mulder’s back, he slid the other
one up from his neck into his hair. He held him tighter and more helplessly than he wanted to and tilting his head back, nuzzled at his
throat until the skin there turned a dark rouge and Mulder
was left cursing and shivering.
Even as he allowed himself to feel a cautious
measure of satisfaction, Mulder twisted out of his
grip somehow, like a freshly caught fish. Without
warning, he dipped his head and using his hands to
keep Skinner’s shirt open, found his bare
chest. And licked. Skinner made a sharp, muffled
sound of surprise which turned into something
between a growl and a groan as Mulder,
encouraged, took a nipple into his mouth and
tongued it.
"Jesus Christ, Mulder, if you want to help out here,
stop fucking around and suck my dick," Skinner said,
his voice rasping in his own ears
as if he had been inhaling smoke-filled air.
Mulder looked up at him happily. "And they say
romance is dead."
It took only that, and his hands were once more biting
desperately into Mulder’s flesh. He tried to gentle
his grip, knowing his fingers would leave bruises. But his brain
had just made another important discovery. Mulder
was licking a slow, remorseless path down his chest,
towards his groin. He said Mulder’s name out aloud
peremptorily, trying to regain some measure of
control over events, for appearances’ sake. Another
moment and the second all important fact filtered
through. Mulder had taken the namecalling to heart.
Lifting a flushed, full mouth off his skin just as he’d
reached his groin, he stopped touching him in order to
give him an are-you-okay look. Fucking thoughtful
bastard. Don’t stop. Is what he wanted to say.
Instead, he nodded at his glasses, lying discarded at their
feet. "Don’t," he said as grimly as he could. "Don’t
you step on those."
Mulder’s mouth moved against his navel in a muffled
volley of laughter and then he was sliding, sliding, all
the way down to kneel before him.
"Can I do this? Can I do this, Walter?" he asked
and without waiting for a reply, suddenly and
shockingly, swallowed his cock whole.
"Fuck! Mulder...godda-"
Skinner shut his mouth with a snap. He looked down to see Mulder
watching him, his throat working visibly as he sucked
Skinner’s cock. He put out one, not
entirely steady hand and smoothed back Mulder’s
hair which had restlessly found its way over his
forehead. Mulder’s hands tightened convulsively for a
moment on Skinner’s ass, the small discomfort sending
a jolt of pleasure straight to his cock, making his balls
ache. Skinner saw him shiver, his mouth now beginning
to slide slowly on and off Skinner’s cock.
So damn slowly, as if his cock was some kind of banned
luxury.
He tried to think of something, anything,
unrelated to the sight of Mulder near-naked,
kneeling there in front of him. He refused to
come ten seconds after Mulder had
gotten his mouth around him. All he could see
when he closed his eyes though, was Mulder
shivering when he had smoothed back the
hair from that high, untroubled forehead. It
amazed him that he could provoke such a reaction.
He wasn’t a complete asshole. Women found
him attractive and he had met his fair share of ones
who got off on the marine background
and the AD nameplate. But that shiver from Mulder
had been personal. Localized to Walter Skinner,
without the added bullshit.
The thought sent a jolt of arousal to his groin,
spiking in his cock, making it jerk in Mulder’s mouth.
Mulder immediately gentled his hard suck and
swallow routine till his tongue was delicately
fluttering up and down Skinner’s length.
Vaguely Skinner understood that the person breathing
in hard, short gasps was him. His world was reduced to
the wet, warm feel of Mulder’s mouth working up
and down his cock. Just as quickly, the feel of Mulder's
fingers slipping under his balls to stroke him there, expanded it.
Unable to marshal the raw
pleasure into something more domesticated, he
brought his other hand around from
Mulder’s back to cup the knotted jaw.
His thumb stroked the pale half-sliver of light that lay
along Mulder’s right cheekbone, then trailed down to
rub against the saliva slick juncture of his cock and
Mulder’s lips. Mulder’s mouth was moving faster and
taking Skinner in deeper, his tongue licking at him in
light, skimming strokes. His hands were still steady on Skinner's ass,
cool fingers stroking over his buttocks, as cool as Mulder's
mouth was hot. Skinner groaned, unable to help himself.
And felt a fever begin to roam his skin when Mulder’s
cock surged towards his thigh at the sound.
Putting his hands behind Mulder’s head, he cupped
his skull, thumbs rubbing against his scalp, and said
softly, "I’m going to come soon."
Mulder moved his mouth off Skinner’s cock long enough
to say in a low, inviting tone, "Good. Fuck my mouth."
He had no recourse in the face of such
deliberate seduction. Without thought, his hands slid back
into Mulder’s skull and made fists in his hair. He
swallowed a brief snort of laughter. Who had seduced
whom? Then he was, gently at first, guiding himself in
and out of Mulder’s mouth. It felt like the most
natural thing in the world. He wondered how it was
for Mulder. It certainly seemed to be what he wanted.
The man was difficult enough to read in his usual
habitat. With Skinner's cock down his throat,
difficult became impossible.
Skinner supposed that in time, if such a
thing came to pass, practice would yield dividends.
Right now, all he wanted to do when he looked at
Mulder on his knees like that, was drive himself into
the other man, over and over, until at least one of
them blacked out. An unfamiliar tenderness constricted his throat, in
counterpoint to the suddenly urgent tempo of his
thrusts. Mulder’s hands were strong and steady on
his ass and he was taking Skinner deeper and
harder into his throat than Skinner thought was
humanly possible. Watching Mulder straining to
suck him that way was more than he could bear and
he shut his eyes again.
Then there was nothing else but
Mulder’s mouth, all slick heat, and the cool drag of
air in the moments he emerged from that heat.
He could feel his stomach muscles tightening as his
cock slid from hot to cold and back again, one leading
into the next. From a long way off, he could hear himself
saying Mulder's name, urging him on. Only this time, Mulder
was here and he
was real. And when he swallowed Skinner down
once more, Skinner didn’t feel any surprise that it
was for the last time, his orgasm ripped from
him in a spasm of heat and obscenities and release.
All the while, he could feel Mulder’s mouth on him,
softly swallowing and licking and kissing his cock.
Apart from the sound of
his breath coming loud and harsh into the room, they
were both silent for a couple of minutes, comfortably
so.
When he felt some confidence in his muscles again,
he carefully uncurled his fists from Mulder’s hair and
said mildly, "I think I’ve gone insane. Come here."
Mulder got up a little stiffly and looked askance, but
came willingly enough into Skinner’s embrace.
Keeping one arm wound tightly around his
body, Skinner pressed his free hand to the nape of Mulder's neck, gathering him in. They stood that way for a few minutes until
Mulder relaxed all the way and shifting his face a little,
buried it in Skinner's throat with a satisfied sound. A sound that, some years back, would have had Skinner hard and ready to
go again. As it was, he had to fight not to think of it as
pathetic that such an ordinary courtesy could be novel enough
to please Mulder so much. He moved his head away to
survey Mulder’s flushed, open face.
"Say something," he said brusquely, unsure what he wanted
to hear.
Mulder slid his arms from around Skinner’s
shoulders and wrapped them around his waist and
back. Fitting his chin into the warmth of Skinner’s throat,
he said thoughtfully, "That used to be my favorite
fantasy. You’ve put my imaginary sex life into a very
difficult position now. I hope you appreciate that."
Skinner felt his mouth dip into a grin and hastily hid it
in Mulder’s hair even as he gave him a none too
gentle pinch on the arm. Just like that, the uneasy turbulence
of aftermath fell away from them, for which he was grateful.
He was under no illusions that
they would need to talk about what was happening
between them but this wasn’t the time. Or the place.
"Jesus," he breathed suddenly, knowing the sudden
tension in his body had communicated itself to the
other man when Mulder twisted away enough to look
up at him anxiously.
"What?"
"Goddamnit, do you know where we are?"
Mulder looked away hurriedly but not before Skinner
saw that shit-eating grin make its encore appearance.
"Hey, the earth moved for me too, Walter. But
that was then. Haven’t you got your bearings yet, big bo-"
"Shut the fuck up and get dressed," Skinner ordered,
trying to sound suitably business-like and failing
abysmally as Mulder caught him checking out his
legs as he got into his pants.
He zipped up, struck anew by the
sheer emancipation of such madness. He, Walter
Sergei Skinner had just had his cock sucked by a
subordinate in a briefing room. Probably one in
which J Edgar had farted. Did he care? Not right
now. And he was forced to wonder if he ever would
or whether it mattered. Not that he planned a
repeat of this location any time soon in his lifetime.
But regret this? Not right now.
Mulder tried to keep his grin under check, not
wanting to send Skinner from amused tolerance into
some kind of redneck guilt trip. Although, from the sidelong
looks that he allowed himself once or twice, Skinner
didn’t look to be in any danger of embracing guilt. His face
held that slightly quizzical look of self-awareness
that Mulder had only ever seen once or twice
before. He loved that look. About as much as he had
loved the taste of Skinner’s cock. Abruptly he cut
off that line of thinking. They were
lucky they hadn’t overstayed their welcome here, as
it was. Scully was no doubt waiting and
unimpressed. And it wasn't like he had an excuse
he could share with her. He was unaware he
was smirking until Skinner sighed impatiently.
"Can we leave, Mulder, or are you going to stand
there all night doing impressions of village idiots?"
"Yeah, yeah." Mulder half-heartedly injected a
grumble into his voice and shrugged on his jacket.
"Can’t wait to see where we go for our second date."
Dark eyes rested on his face for a thoughtful
moment before Skinner said blandly, "I might even
buy you a beer next time. Loosen you up a
little."
Mulder rolled his eyes and opened the door, walking
out in front of Skinner.
"Did I mention I was nearly a child gymnast?" he asked
chirpily and cannoned straight into Gills who
was standing on the other side of the door, looking
thunderstruck.
Mulder opened his mouth and then closed it again.
It was up to Skinner how he wanted to deal with
this. Moreover it didn’t take a particularly observant
eye to see Skinner had a bone of his own to pick
here. He moved to one side of him, taking a
carefully apposite stance, neither here nor there.
"Simon." Skinner nodded politely.
For a moment Mulder wondered whether he’d
imagined the state of undress Skinner and he had
just been in. Then, taking in the set of Skinner's shoulders,
he decided he hadn’t. Gills looked at them both with
the hopeless, castaway air of a man who knows his
best bet is to keep his mouth shut but who has decided
to speak anyway. The kind of guy
who knows his fuckups are coming a mile away
and is always powerless to stop himself.
"What the hell was going on in there?"
He was speaking to Skinner. Mulder crossed his
arms, tucked his hands into his armpits and rocked
up and down gently on his toes. Seek life elsewhere,
Gills.
"What do you think was going on in there, Simon?"
Skinner asked.
Gills started to talk. Stopped. Started again. Took
in Skinner staring at him expressionlessly.
Stopped again. Mulder tried reciting the periodic table
backwards in his head.
He got as far as Magnesium before Gills said in an unpleasant
voice, "I know what the two of you were doing in there. And
don’t think threatening me is going to work, Walter.
You’re just the goddamn AD. Don’t forget who I
work for."
Skinner’s eyes rested on him meditatively. "Agent
Mulder, did you hear me threaten Mr Gills?"
"No Sir, I did not," Mulder replied, flashing
a cheerful smile at Gills.
Gills stared at them both for a spiteful second, his
schoolboy cowlick flopping over his forehead. "You’re crazy
if you think Manning’s going to stand for this. You
think you’re so much better than me, Walter. You
always have. Well, you don’t run the fucking Bureau,
no matter what you think. Manning does and you’d
better start remembering it."
Gills’ face had reddened by the end of his speech.
Mulder had a brief flash of insight into the kind of child
he must have been. Always bullied, never
befriended; a little worm who grew up into a big
worm. He wondered what kind of kid Skinner had been.
Noting the mandarin impassivity with which Skinner
was regarding Gills, he doubted it was the kind
that had had fruit pelted at him.
"If I had been threatening you, Simon, which, Agent
Mulder will tell you I didn’t, it wasn’t in my official
capacity," Skinner said flatly, pausing a moment to
let his message sink in.
By the widening of Gills’ puppydog eyes, Mulder
could see it had.
Skinner waited another beat and then continued.
"Now if you have those files for us, hand them over
and then find your way out of here, Simon. Tell
Manning what you want. As long as you understand
the consequences that may attach to that."
Mulder could see how badly Gills wanted to explode
into another rant but obviously felt
menaced enough this time around to keep his mouth shut. He
handed over the files to Mulder wordlessly and then
left, giving Skinner one last filthy look.
They stood together in silence for a while, listening
to his shoes echoing off the silent hallways until
they couldn’t hear him any more. Then Skinner was
striding briskly off down the corridor, towards the
elevators. After a confused moment, Mulder’s legs
moved themselves until he was walking alongside
Skinner.
"You know he’s the kind of guy who isn't going
to kiss and make up, right?" he cautiously asked Skinner.
Skinner grinned, the tight displeased look leaving his eyes.
"I can't handle more than one a night."
It startled a snicker out of Mulder.
"But you probably wanted him to take it personally.
How else can you be sure he’s going to run to
Manning and blab his pissy little heart out to him?"
He didn't look over but he could feel Skinner
giving him the eyeball of approval.
"Exactly. I’m probably giving Manning more credit than
he deserves but I think he’ll know to leave this alone
for now, at least. And in the bargain, keep an eye out
for any problems Gills might cause. It doesn’t serve
his needs to fuck us up while the investigation is
ongoing."
Mulder nodded. "Better the devil you know," he said
lightly.
"That’s what Manning will think, anyway," Skinner
replied, without bothering to elaborate.
They lapsed back into a comfortable silence until
they got to the car.
Then Skinner said quietly, as he slid into the driver’s
seat, "You holding up, Mulder?"
His hands stuttered to a halt in mid-battle with
his seatbelt, the low, intimate undertones of
Skinner’s voice leaving him in no doubt as to what
the other man was referring to. Unwilling to show
the effect it had on him, he grinned
instead and slid his hand under Skinner’s hand
which was resting on his own thigh.
"Cluck, cluck, Walter."
Skinner snorted rudely and pulled his hand away.
"In keeping with my
new and cluckable character, I think I should remind
you that Scully will be less likely to rip your head
off your shoulders if you give her a call before we
get back to the house."
"Oh shit," Mulder muttered, fumbling for his cell, his
fingers ten steps ahead of him and already
punching in the last few numbers. He waited on the
rings, wondering just how pissed she was by now.
Knowing the answer.
"Scully." The voice was somewhere between glacial and
exasperated.
"We got held up," Mulder said in a placating
tone he saved just for Scully, aware that it had
Skinner throwing him a blandly amused glance.
"How much longer, Mulder?"
"We’re on our way - another ten minutes, if Walter
steps on the gas."
"What're the odds of that, Mulder?"
"Better than average," Mulder said as they flew
through a set of lights in the process of turning red.
"I’ll get the Chinese."
"I knew you wouldn’t let it get cold."
"I knew you’d be late," Scully said coolly,
before letting a slight hint of curiosity color her
voice. "I don’t know what Skinner wants?"
Mulder frowned. "Me either." Turning to Skinner, he
said, "What kind of Chinese food do you like?"
"I don’t like Chinese food."
Mulder stared at him. "What do you mean?
Everybody likes Chinese food. Well what do you
wan-"
Skinner’s fingers drummed a little tattoo on the
steering wheel. "Kungpao chicken. And lots of
noodles."
Mulder shot him a disbelieving look, then said
balefully into the phone, "Kungpao chicken, extra
hot. And lots of noodles."
A pause before Scully said, "Hurry up. This view is
getting old."
Mulder put the cell away and looked over at
Skinner. Speculatively.
Catching his look, Skinner said, "Now what?"
Mulder deliberated pointing out that
the type of Chinese food Skinner liked to eat didn’t
need to be kept a state secret. Decided that one blow
job wasn’t sufficient grounds for relaying that kind of
headline news to Skinner.
"Nothing."
Skinner’s face fell back into lines of mild irritation.
"Well shut up then."
"I didn’t say anything."
"I can hear you thinking."
Mulder made a rude sound in the back of his throat
and looked out his window to hide the smirk that
had found its way onto his face. By the time they arrived,
touched base with Scully and trooped into the kitchen,
it was well past any civilized dining hour. Which, Mulder
thought bemusedly, as he grabbed a barstool and pulled it
up to the kitchen counter to join Skinner and Scully,
was just as well. There was nothing very civilized
about the knots in his stomach. They set to
eating with single minded concentration, and silence
reigned until the counter top was littered with the
debris of empty plates and greasy containers.
Scully broke first, pushing away what was left of her
meal, with a sigh of relief.
Mulder had watched her eating, wondering what she
thought of everything that was going on. Skinner
had told her more than he was letting on, he knew
that much. Maybe even more than he himself knew.
Scully was nobody’s fool. She might have put two
and two together and got five. If, why, what and
whether he wanted in the end to really know, were
questions that Mulder didn’t know how to answer.
Not right then anyway,
Skinner threw the leftovers together into one
container and efficiently stacked the other empty
ones into each other before throwing them into the
trash.
"I’m going to grab a quick shower. The two
of you can get started."
He spared Mulder a look that sat somewhere
between concern and warning and then went
towards the bathroom. Mulder was left to absorb
this double layer of Walter and the AD that was now
available to him. While he was still blinking it away,
Scully moved to the dining table and spread out
each of the files. He put some coffee to the boil and
came over to sit next to her, enjoying the silence in
which they could work together, feeling his mind
start to uncurl itself and tick over. He was gratified
to see that Gills hadn’t begrudged them extra
copies. He didn’t want to share.
The files were huge; each one was a bundle of
neatly clipped together mass of information, filled
with details on each of the task force members -
Kroeger, Bagnio, Cooke and Armstrong. The voices
of people who knew them made up pages upon
pages of neat, typed script. Then there were details
about the places they had lived, schools they had
attended, hobbies they had had, illnesses that had
befallen them, girlfriends who had liked them,
girlfriends who hadn’t; and it just went on. Most of it
would be utterly irrelevant. Parts of it would be red
herrings; facts that seemed to point this way and
that and instead drew them off course. Those were
the dangerous parts.
Of what was left, some of it would be the kinds of
facts that every one could lay claim to, both killers
and non-killers. There were people out there who
got beaten by their parents, who got kicked out of
their families, who raped old women and little boys
and everything else besides. Somewhere in what
was left after that, would be a few slivers of clues.
Not always the case, sometimes the signs were
glaringly obvious and it was simply a matter of time.
Mulder was certain there would be no gifts here.
This was a guy who
was still very much in control of his demons and let
them out to feed at selective, low-risk moments of
his life. There wouldn’t be a great deal of debris left
lying around, if any.
"Mulder, how do you want to do this?"
Mulder could hear her battling off the initial
exasperation that always came over her at the start
of cases. Scully hated the initial skirmish with the
facts, the careful, introductory hide-n-seek involved
in creating a database of useful facts. Her eyes
were roaming restlessly across the files, her
fingertips resting in an unconscious
gesture of faith against the slender gold chain at her
throat. He caught her gaze, gave her a cocky
grin and said ‘the water’s boiled’, knowing that a
little irritation at him would go a long way towards
tamping down her brewing impatience. Scully bit down on
her bottom lip, eyes turning cool for a
moment as they regarded him.
Mulder smiled hopefully at her and she got to her
feet grudgingly, muttering, "Don’t think I don’t know
what you’re up to."
He raised his voice so he could be heard over the
clatter of mugs and teaspoons. "Let’s start with their
childhoods. Always a good place to breed a
disturbed kid."
Scully shot him a look she saved for the special
occasions when he really said something to piss her
off. She put the coffee pot down on the table harder
than necessary and snapped at Skinner who had
just shown himself again, comfortable in sweats,
"Coffee, sir?"
Skinner nodded warily, shooting Mulder a quizzical
look. "Thank you, Scully."
Mulder raised his head to stare at them both.
Scully? Just plain Scully. Where was the Agent
Scully? Why did they sound like they were picking
up an old conversation? He wanted to ask. Instead
he pretended he’d never stopped talking.
"I’ll take Kroeger and Bagnio. Walter, you take
Cooke. Scully, you take Armstrong. Start at the start.
Flag anything that looks out of the
ordinary, however small."
Skinner poured out the coffee and produced pens
and notepads. Scully was still dressed in her
suit, although she took the lined jacket off,
managing to look even more fragile in the process.
Looks were deceiving, Mulder thought. It wasn’t the
first time she’d been in for a long, long night with
him. Although, possibly these were better
conditions than most. The house seemed even
more warmly colored at night, without the sunlight
there to compete with the warm, yellow walls.
The kitchen and dining room lights were bright but not
harsh. They picked up the red-gold glints of Scully’s
hair, softening the lines of concentration around her
eyes. The chairs were made of soft leather and the
table was large enough to spread out each of their
bits and pieces without hassling each other. It was only
the actual job at hand, Mulder thought wryly as he
opened up Kroeger's file, that struck the false note.
Two hours later, he didn’t particularly care how
much comfort he was steeped in. His gut ached
from the late night mix of Chinese food and strong
coffee. He had a splitting headache from the pages
of unending black typed script. From the frown on
Skinner’s face, he was in much the same condition.
Scully looked a little drawn herself and had taken to
grimacing at each sip of her coffee. Probably
because she was letting it get cold faster now,
regardless of all the refills she kept replacing.
Occasionally they talked - a sentence here, a
question there - but for the main part, they sat there
in silence, making notes and reducing the files down
to a smaller, more pertinent volume of facts.
Kroeger grew up in Redmond, Washington where
he stayed until he went into a military education
prior to becoming an FBI agent. At the age of six,
Kroeger had acquired a baby sister. He came from
a monied background and nannies were there to
be hired and fired. Some of them had talked a little
and some of them had talked a lot. By the time he
was done reading their sum total, Mulder was
well and truly bored shitless with the numerous
household complaints. But what did stand out was
the general consensus amongst the nannies that
Kroeger, a smart but shy little kid, had reacted
badly to the situation.
His mother had had difficulties during the
pregnancy. This had meant long stays in hospitals
and very little time for young Kroeger. When he
wasn’t wandering around by his own lonesome, he
was throwing tantrums. Shrieking tantrums which
didn’t stop until his father was called in to remedy
the situation. And remedy it he did. With the end of
his belt he would beat a six year old Kroeger until he
bled. Nice guy, Mulder thought sourly. No
wonder Kroeger grew up into such an all star asshole.
More trouble lay ahead of that six year old boy.
Mom got sick with the next pregnancy. Mulder
would have bet his life that condoms were a strict
no-no in that happy little family. This time Mom was
so sick that she died. Which left Kroeger’s father to
run the roost. With an iron hand.
So no doubt, Kroeger ended up a lonely child and
like many other lonely children, that would account
for the snippets of diphasic behavior recorded in his
early school reports. Mulder composed a mental lecture,
distancing himself from the tempting parallels.
Most lonely children are lonely
because they are unsocialized. Check. People are social
animals who perform in groups. Check. Kids who are
abandoned or neglected or abused by their parents,
are not inbued with the same socialized responses
as other kids. Check. Kids who didn’t get beaten. Check. Kids
whose sisters didn’t disappear into thin air. Check. He paused for a
moment, gathering himself as his pen tap-tapped
against the business-like notation at the top of the next page.
‘1967 - Eugenia Richards went missing’. Habit, habit.
That old crony who sneaked up on him
from time to time, making him forget that the world
was full of brothers and sisters.
His sister's disappearance, of
course, meant that in 1967, in the decade of peace
and love, Richard Kroeger became the sole focus of
his father. Who, the next equally dry entry noted,
had started drinking heavily. Even more reason for
Kroeger to perform what, for
a kid, seems like a sophisticated trick and retreat
into a fantasy world from which he would
occasionally come out and inhabit the real world. A
bit like renewing a library book that you never really
mean to get around to reading but want to have on
hand, just in case. But not every kid who did this
ended up requiring professional medical
intervention like Kroeger did. Most lonely kids
encounter someone - a peer or an adult - who
persuades them to accept the risks of dealing with
real relationships. Only a very small proportion go
deeper and deeper into their fantasy world until
they barely inhabit their real world cover personality.
And the deeper they went, the more stressful and
alone a process it was when they had to emerge
into the real world. And the more energy it took, the
angrier they became. As Mulder worked
through the file, by the age of eight, Richard
Kroeger had been thrown out of three schools and
had pushed two teachers into nervous breakdowns.
He regularly got into fights and kids were genuinely
scared of him. Eventually he was put into
involuntary psychiatric care. A Dr Pearlman had
been his therapist for a year and a half. The only
note that accompanied Pearlman’s name was one
that said ‘Continued refusal to speak with Bureau
investigators.’ Mulder made his own notes which
included talking to Pearlman, however he could.
And wondered what Kroeger’s father had thought of
him.
The file was thickest at the beginning and started
tapering off towards adulthood, as Mulder
had expected it would. Kroeger went into the
military, just like his dad, and emerged with an
exemplary record and commendations coming out
his ears. Along the way there were girlfriends but
except for one - a Jane Leith - who had lasted nearly a year, there
was no one serious. The file investigators hadn’t
been able to find Leith who had moved away from
Redmond, leaving Kroeger in the process.
Mulder thought it was a good bet that she probably
congratulated herself daily for having done it.
Not a woman who wanted to make herself available
for questions about a relationship with Richard
Kroeger, he didn't think. But she might be
persuaded. If she could be found.
Finally Kroeger ended up in the FBI
where his work was not living up to the promise he
had shown earlier on. There was nothing in the
file that concerned his relationships with other
agents, either professional and personal. Mulder knew
they would have to chase them down themselves,
informally, if they wanted details about the unsavory
reputation that hadn’t made it into the file but followed
Kroeger around everywhere he went.
So did this mean Kroeger was their UNSUB?
He could well be. Until the team could put together a series
of murders from those boxes, he couldn’t give an
accurate profile or make a prediction.
Anyone who
had done any time in ISU knew that the old hack song
about serial killers being a breed apart from normal
people, was one big crock. What people never wanted
to know was that the smallest of things usually separates
a serial killer from a dysfunctional person. A person might
indulge in diphasic behavior as a child, torture small
animals, set fires and all the rest of those often seen
red flags in serial killer life histories and never end
up crossing the line between fantasy and reality.
That person, usually a man, might become a
physical or emotional abuser. He will probably have
an abnormally short temper and be prone to fits of
rage and use violence as a very first resort. He will
be almost pathological about exerting control over
other people and events around him. The very
worst of these personality types will retreat into
violent sexual fantasies of control and humiliation.
But only a very small percentage, as he well knew, of these
personality types will cross the line. Most people
never wanted to know that because then they would
have to face that fact that rather than being a
separate and bizarre phenomenon, the serial killer
is a basic personality type in society, one that has
been around for a very long time.
The question wasn’t, to Mulder’s mind, whether
Kroeger was one of these personality types. He
was certain that he was. The question was, had
Kroeger crossed the line? And if so, how far?
Most of these personality
types found a compensatory outlet for their inability to
interact normally with society. They might abuse
their employees or subordinates, might become
difficult people to deal with in the workplace, might
even enter professions where they use their
professional position to try to humiliate and control
their clients. They might be voyeurs or might even
troll for potential victims but never attack because
the trolling is exciting enough to satisfy them. They
might seek out violent sex with prostitutes. They
might medicate themselves with drugs and alcohol
in order to inhibit the dangerous urges they feel.
Some will cross over the line into firmly criminal
activities and become burglars and rapists.
However, they might not need to go as far as
homicide to gain the measure of equilibrium they
sought. As long as they stayed in their comfort zones
and were able to give vent to their violent,
controlling urges, they would not kill. Which was
Kroeger? That was the question. A question that
would have to wait until they could put together a
series of murders with a common signature.
Frowning in thought, Mulder looked up to see
both Scully and Skinner watching him, their faces
lined with fatigue.
"What time is it?" he asked, surprising all of them
with the rusty croak that came out of him.
"Want some water?" Skinner asked.
Mulder nodded gratefully. "Yeah. Thanks."
"It’s nearly 1am, Mulder," Scully said. "We’ve
been doing this for nearly three hours now."
Mulder acceded to the unspoken plea in her voice.
"Okay. Gimme a little more time to do Kroeger and
you guys can look at what I’ve come up with
for Bagnio. And then we’ll compare notes, okay?"
He nodded his thanks at Skinner who placed a
glass of water in front of him. Scully and Skinner
poured more coffee and took toilet breaks. He
ignored his own half-full mug and started on
Bagnio’s file. It was an easy second to Kroeger’s
when it came to volume. But there was very little in
it that helped give Mulder a picture of who he was.
He grew up in Atlanta, Georgia and lived there long
enough to account for the pleasant way in which he
rounded out his words. Bagnio was named after his
father, Steve Snr., and was one of five children.
When he was ten, his parents divorced amicably.
Bagnio’s older brother and sister stayed with his
mother. Bagnio moved with his father and younger
brother to Washington. No family problems. Both
father and mother remained friends and happily
travelled up and down between the two states,
making sure the kids got to see enough of them and
of each other. He was still close to all his siblings
and got on with his mother very well. His father had
died of a heart attack four years ago.
At school, he had been a loner but hadn’t been picked on by
the other kids. A couple of bullies had a try but
Bagnio was big for his age and a natural athlete.
He stood his ground and fought fair. Mulder noted
that he even ended up as friends
with one of them. Jason Miller was his name and the
lengthy transcript of his interview boiled down to the
fact that he worshipped the ground Bagnio walked
on. Not helpful. As Mulder flipped through the file,
he found it was the same all the way through. No
one had a bad word to say about Bagnio.
He was a man without enemies, it would seem. Or
one with enemies as discreet as Bagnio
himself appeared to be.
If the guy had ever done
anything wrong, it was buried so far up his ass that
the investigators hadn’t been able to lure it out.
Model student who won nearly every scholarship
there was to be had. He was clearly
intelligent and had been a favorite with all the teachers.
He remained more or less anti-social throughout high
school but had a few good friends, including Jason
Miller. All of them sang the same tune too. Bagnio
the Great. Interestingly though, not one of them
responded to the prompts given out by the interviewers,
as to whether Bagnio might be gay.
Two of his best
friends were intensely homophobic. Not a lot of girls
but Bagnio had dated and had a couple of long term
relationships that didn’t go anywhere but didn’t end
in tears either. The girls were all doe-eyed
brunettes, with legs up to their tits and very little of
interest to say, though that didn’t stop them from
talking. And, Mulder noted with a wry grin, that
didn’t stop the interviewers from asking long,
pointless questions. He wasn’t surprised to see that
the names at the bottom of each interview sheet belonged
to male agents. Perks of the job.
Given the monotony of gathering information about
Mr Model Citizen, Steve Bagnio, he couldn’t say he
blamed them for lingering over what seemed to
have been the highlight of Bagnio’s file. Bagnio had
serenely sailed through life and ended up at the FBI.
He was one of the more promising recruits. Again,
he had very few friends but the ones he had were
incredibly loyal. Those agents weren’t going to say
anything about Bagnio, either on or off the record.
The buzzword for Bagnio, apparently, was privacy.
He sounded like the kind of guy both Mulder and
Skinner would get along with. Yet
there remained the undeniable fact that Bagnio had
somehow known Mulder’s choice and style of sex
and propositioned him.
Moreover, if Mulder remembered rightly and he
always did, Bagnio had said that he dealt in the kind
of unusual relationship that Mulder was after. At the
time Mulder had written it off as intriguingly delivered
but fairly routine talk for someone who preferred
to be the sexual aggressor. Yet, nowhere in Bagnio’s
file was there even a hint that
he might have had sex with a man. In each interview
with the ex-girlfriends, the very thought that Bagnio
would be into anything but vanilla sex, brought on a
flurry of such wide-eyed giggles that even the most
charmed of the interviewers were clearly put out of
patience. Yet Mulder had read his proposition as that
of an experienced and confident man. And if Mulder
was any proof, Bagnio was, at the very least,
egalitarian in his choice of gender.
Finally he put his pen down and closed the file, to
the patent relief of both Scully and Skinner. As he’d
expected, they hadn’t too much to say about Cooke
and Armstrong. Both were cut from the same
mould. Cooke was married with two small kids and
Armstrong was engaged. Armstrong was nowhere
near as stupid as he looked, which, Scully noted
caustically, was lucky since he’d be brain-dead
otherwise. His file read him as exactly what he
looked like - a natural born jock. Somehow,
through a mix of favors he hadn’t really wanted,
courtesy of parents with big connections and even
bigger ambitions for their only son, Armstrong had
made it this far.
He wasn’t particularly good at what he did but he
was also kept on a very short leash, an obvious
result of more favors. Nobody wanted to be the one
to explain to Senator Armstrong and his wife why
their only child got killed in the line of duty. So while
there were no outstanding parts of Armstrong’s
record, there were no major fuck-ups either.
Cooke had a father who was in the FBI and was
killed when a routine inquiry following up some
leads earned him two in the chest with a sawn-off
shotgun. He was considered fair but very by-the-
book, a mixture of inflexible and eager which
made him hard to pigeonhole. A high level of
intelligence but not big on achievements or awards.
Mulder thought he was a good guy and didn’t
hesitate to say so.
"He’s not our guy."
Skinner snorted. "What, just like that? That’s it?
We eliminate him from our list of possibilities?"
Mulder held the AD’s slightly bemused gaze and
tried to remember that in terms of serial killers,
Skinner didn’t get out that much.
"Yeah, just like that."
Skinner looked at him, interest warring with
scepticism. Then he said, "Scully? What do you think?"
Mulder was aware that Scully was cataloguing every
movement, every word that passed between
Skinner and himself. Again he wondered just how
much she knew about what was going on around
here.
"Sir, he hasn’t mentioned the mothership yet," she
said, shooting Mulder a you-better-thank-me-in-
the-morning look. "So I’d say it’s safe. Besides, all of
Mulder’s hunches, analyses - call them what you want
- have come through."
She paused and then continued, her voice without
inflection. "This is the sum of my experiences on all the
cases I’ve assisted him with, anyway."
Pinned between Mulder’s glares and Scully’s
disapproval, Skinner capitulated and said, "Okay,
Mulder. I’ll go on your word with Cooke. So tell us
about Kroeger and Bagnio."
They listened carefully while he went over his notes
and neither cavilled nor questioned anything he had
to say. In truth, he was surprised at how little
Skinner stepped on his toes. While he wouldn’t go
as far as to say he didn’t miss it being just Scully
and himself, he gave Skinner credit for meeting
him half-way as much as he could.
When he wound up, Scully asked, "So when you
were saying earlier that you think our UNSUB is
unaware of one set of serial killings, you think that
one of these guys is actually never going to test
positive with the polygraph?"
Mulder shrugged. "I highly doubt it. I think the
UNSUB is only aware of the homeless murders.
These are the kills
of a very, very careful serial killer who is still entirely
professional and in control. The bodies are not
important to him. I am important to him. The bodies
are being ‘delivered’ to us, like a statement. We’ll
find nothing of value from them."
"So," Skinner said slowly, following Mulder’s logic.
"You think that he’s this good because he’s been
killing a long time?"
Mulder grimaced and nodded. "Yeah and the
reason why he’s broken with pattern is because he’s
split himself up. One of him wasn’t enough to
shuttle through the real world placeholder
personality and his fantasy world. Unfortunately
for his victims, even the part of him that was
broken off so that it could function in the real world,
was so steeped in perversion and rage that it set
up its own killing fields. Only, the motivation and
signature here is quite different. What he wants is
me. The bodies are just a way to get to me."
"We’re going to have to go re-interview witnesses
and see if we can’t find the missing people in their
lives, aren’t we?" Scully asked gloomily.
Mulder nodded. No one bothered to specify
who the ‘they’ were. They were all talking about
Bagnio and Kroeger and they knew it. Finally
Skinner called a halt to the night and would brook
no argument. Mulder argued and eventually complied
with no small amount of ill-grace while Scully looked
suspiciously relieved. He leeched a few extra minutes
while Skinner walked Scully out as a form of de facto
protection and, Mulder suspected, due to a terminal
case of good manners.
Left to himself, he concentrated on the feeling of
unease that had been running through him ever since
he opened up these two files.
He couldn’t see his way clear to which one of these
two, Kroeger or Bagnio, felt right. Which was
vaguely troubling. By now, he could usually feel his
way towards at least settling on one of the
candidates as a likely suspect. Here, something felt
not quite right. He was still frowning into Bagnio’s
file when Skinner returned.
"Mulder, close the file. If you really want, you can
put it under your pillow. But get the hell up. I want
to go to sleep."
Grumbling for the sake of it, Mulder closed the file
and put the whole lot into Skinner’s briefcase and
clicked it shut.
Turning to Skinner he asked,
"So what’s the combination for the locks? You can
tell me, Walter. We are going steady, after all."
Skinner looked like he might smile but merely said
instead, "Is that what we’re doing?"
Mulder grinned. "Well, we can’t share a locker
really and I don’t suppose you have a pin for me to
wear, so..."
Skinner stopped fighting the smile. "You
have to stop watching those frat house movies."
"Hey, I don’t want to hear a word against Animal
House," Mulder said seriously, allowing Skinner to
elbow him aside and set the combination on the
briefcase locks.
"If you go to bed and work out which of your bruises
need a make-over, I’ll lock up," Skinner offered.
Mulder didn't put up any of the many pithy arguments that came to mind. It had been a very fucking long day. His eyes
felt gritty and he could barely hold himself up
without swaying. He tried walking down the hall
towards the master bedroom with some spring in his
step. All the while he felt like he was wrapped from
head to toe in taffy, trying to negotiate his way
through a zero gravity zone. It took him a full ten
minutes to get himself some clean teeth, a glass of
water and an empty bladder. He took his time
slipping carefully into bed, feeling bruises that he
hadn’t given any thought to while showing Skinner
the time of his life. He was still grinning at the
notion that it might have been the time of Gills’ life
too, when Skinner came in.
"What’re you grinning at?"
Mulder chuckled. "Just wondering whether Gills
heard the whole show."
Skinner gave it a moment’s disgusted thought.
"Probably. The guy’s a voyeur in denial."
Watching Skinner take his belt off, Mulder thought wryly
that Gills wasn’t the only one. Looking away
before he was caught staring, he wondered how
long it would be before Skinner wanted to Talk
about what had happened tonight. He shifted
uneasily and caught his breath a little as his knees
groaned. Skinner frowned at him and disappeared
into the bathroom. He came back out a moment later
with a tube of ointment, a bowl of warm water and
soap and a fresh set of sterile bandages.
"Lie still so I can look."
It came out as an order even though it was meant kindly, raising
Mulder’s hackles despite his best intentions a moment ago,
to co-operate. He closed his eyes and tried to stay still, an exercise in
futility. His skin felt preternaturally sensitive, as if
the whole day had caught up with it in the last few
minutes.
"You’ve been going all day," Skinner observed
neutrally, ignoring Mulder’s concerted efforts to
glare at him.
"I’m not a kid," Mulder replied, tensing against
Skinner’s hands as they drew down the sheet and
began moving gently over his chest, checking for
tenderness or pain.
"Then stop acting like one," Skinner said. "Lie still."
He retaped bandages and changed them over
where necessary, helping Mulder to turn over so he
could get to the bruises and cuts on his back.
Finally he got the ointment which turned out to be
muscle balm and began to work a small amount of it into Mulder's skin.
"I don’t like that," Mulder said flatly, displeasure
bleeding into his voice, harshening it.
"You don’t have to," Skinner replied, disinterested, and
continued for a few more minutes, his hands stroking down Mulder's thighs, rounding over the curve of his knees and calves.
The rough warmth of his hands seemed to ease the
aches out of Mulder in direct contrast to the way the
sheets, soft and cool, seemed to aggravate them. He lay
still and only tensed up again when Skinner, having reached his stomach, stopped. He felt his stomach muscles tighten and contort as
he fought off the impulse to raise himself up towards the other man. Skinner’s hands paused a moment in mid-air. Then he was reaching for the tube of ointment and capping the lid back onto it. Mortified,
Mulder realized he was gritting his teeth in an
attempt not to ask Skinner to continue. He shifted
away, wincing a little as he did.
Skinner took it the wrong way and said irritatedly,
"Christ, Mulder. Don't be so jumpy. I’ve already
seen you naked or near enough. What’s the big deal?"
"Oh great," Mulder muttered. "You want to talk about
that now? Just great."
"I don’t want to talk about anything right
now. I just want to get some decent
sleep. Okay?"
Mulder looked over and saw the lines
around Skinner's mouth deepen. Easy to mistake that
look for a scowl instead of the weariness it really
represented.
"Yeah. Okay. Sorry."
Skinner’s eyes rested on him a moment, their
expression unreadable. "You need to sleep too," he said
finally. "Get started on it. I'm going to wash my hands."
Mulder closed his eyes, hearing Skinner make his way
into the bathroom again. Feeling the balm
begin to work its warmth into his body, he began
drifting off. Some time later, he felt Skinner slide into
the bed and was vaguely aware of turning his face
into the solid warmth of the other man’s shoulder.
He murmured something in protest when Skinner’s
arm slid around his waist but was unable to
shake himself out of his lassitude long enough to do
anything about it. Instead he relaxed and fell into that deep,
dreamless sleep that only real fatigue could summons up.
He woke up in stages, aware of a warm body
pressed into his, a voice talking gently into his ear.
"Mm," he mumbled, pressing himself closer
into that warmth.
"Mulder."
The voice sounded exasperated and a little amused.
"Mulder, wake up."
It also sounded very fucking familiar. He
flung himself away from the voice and
opened sleep encrusted eyes in trepidation.
Winced as Skinner’s face swam into focus, his bare
chest leaning over Mulder as he resorted to shaking
him.
"Mulder!"
"Alright! Fuck! I’m awake, okay?" He found the
sight of Skinner’s exposed skin somehow intensely
irritating and turned over on his side, dragging a
corner of the quilt with him to curl up in. "I’m awake.
What is it?"
Skinner’s voice was unexpectedly gentle when he
said, "They’ve found another body."
END OF PART 8